I am an insomniac

I remember sleep.

I am alone.
Alone inside my house, no company to speak of.
I have no friends I trust enough to come and stay the night.
No family that wants to be near or that near I will allow.

I remember sleep.

It is dark.
Pitch black outside other then the stars.
There is no light to cast a shadow.
It is silent, not a sound to be heard other then a passing car.
No tub in my bathroom.

I remember sleep.

There is no danger.
No breathing, no steps.
No shadows cast upon the wall.
There is no one walking down the hall.
No water to be heard.

I remember sleep.

I should be peaceful.
I should be fine.
In fact, I should be happy.
But I'm not.

I remember sleep.

I feel as if I am suffocating.
I feel as if the shadows cast and the steps are heard.
I hear the water running.
I am more fearful now then in years.

I remember sleep.

My mothers gone.
I cast her out.
My brother left.
He's not coming back.
My fathers locked up, so far away.
Any yet...He's here, inside my head.
He is the only one who visits me.

And I can't sleep.
But...
I remember it.
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Here to help my brother and maybe my self.