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#368188 - 08/15/11 06:59 PM The man I have become
thetraveller Offline
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Registered: 05/29/06
Posts: 69
Loc: England
I first posted on this board nearly five years ago and I was a mess. I have come such a long way since then. I recently attended a weekend retreat for male survivors and wrote, and read out, the following poem. It was meant to show the journey I have taken and how far I have come. I hope it may encourage all those still walking the difficult path of recovery that things can be good once again. Love to you all

The man I have become

The man that Iíve become, is strong, gentle and kind
The man that I was once, was hard, hurt, I despised
The man that Iíve become, is loving, loyal with hope
The man that I was once, was so lost and so broke

There was a little boy lost inside this man
Carrying a very big hurt he didnít understand
This little boy cried unheard for years
This big man struggled to contain his tears

The man that I became as I reached out and I was heard
Changed the man that I was once, despairing and hurt
This man that I became as I journeyed down a path
Changed the man that I was once, cowering alone in the dark

There was a little boy lost inside this man
Carrying a very big hurt he didnít understand
This little boy cried unheard for years
This big man struggled to contain his tears

This man that I became as I let go of guilt and of blame
Changed the man that I was once, drowning in shame
This man that I became, through grieving innocence lost
Changed the man that I was once, whoíd paid to high a cost


There was a little boy lost inside this man
Carrying a very big hurt he didnít understand
This little boy cried unheard for years
This big man struggled to contain his tears

This man I became because other stood by my side
Changing the man I was once, who was dying inside
This man I became because fellow survivors inspired
Changing the man I was once, as I truly desired

There was a little boy lost, but now he is found
I gave him very big hugs, and I took his hand
I led this little boy, to a place of warmth and safety
Now this big man protects him, truly at peace

The man I am now is strong, gentle and kind
While the man that I was once, I can barely recognize


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#368190 - 08/15/11 08:14 PM Re: The man I have become [Re: thetraveller]
Surferpanita Offline


Registered: 07/13/11
Posts: 8
Loc: Florida
Awesome stuff, Traveller! I salute you in such a great journey you had!

Pura Vida!!

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#368193 - 08/15/11 09:44 PM Re: The man I have become [Re: Surferpanita]
Still Offline
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Registered: 02/16/07
Posts: 6607
Loc: FEMA Region 1
Well done!

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#368252 - 08/16/11 04:44 PM Re: The man I have become [Re: Still]
petercorbett Offline
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Registered: 07/27/08
Posts: 2453
Loc: TEXAS
My fraternal brothers,

WOW, from the depths of your heart & soul. Just awesome.

Our compassion, understanding & love of our inner child. Finally knowing who & what we truly are. AWSOME

AS I didn't know me until now.

"I will take that lost boys hand, and I will lead him from the depths of darkness, into the sunshine, forever into eternity."
As he is me.

Heal well, my fraternal brothers, heal well.

Pete..Irishmoose.

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May 15-17 2009, Alta, Sep. 2009. Sequoia, 2010.
Hope Springs, 2010.


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#368338 - 08/17/11 01:27 PM Re: The man I have become [Re: petercorbett]
men_of_hrts.dbw Offline
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Registered: 02/20/09
Posts: 302
Loc: Orchidland Big Island Hawaii
Wow, thanks Traveller; (((choke/tears))) Smiles

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#370338 - 09/17/11 10:00 AM Re: The man I have become [Re: men_of_hrts.dbw]
KMCINVA Offline
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Registered: 08/31/11
Posts: 1790
I was reading the poetry section--what a wonderful poem. It captures my heart. I am striving to become the man you have become. I am on the journey of healing with my inner child. Thank you for the inspiration and hope.


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#370353 - 09/17/11 01:16 PM Re: The man I have become [Re: KMCINVA]
overcomer4life Offline


Registered: 02/25/09
Posts: 198
I'm striving to get to that same place. Your poem shows me that it is possible!!! Thank you!!!


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#372086 - 10/10/11 05:41 PM Re: The man I have become [Re: thetraveller]
pbert53 Offline
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Registered: 10/26/09
Posts: 576
Loc: Washington, USA
Traveller,

You said it all. Good journey to be a better man.

Kudos to you. It was inspiring and helpful.

Keep on. The things you have been through and the things you have learned to get you to where you are are great. You are on a path to healthy recovery and good things.

Thanks for the story and the help.

peace

paul smile

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If you cannot control what happens to you, you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.

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#461249 - 02/21/14 11:51 PM Re: The man I have become [Re: thetraveller]
victor-victim Offline


Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 3602
Loc: O Kanada
great message of hope for wounded.
thanks for sharing your successes.
positive energy is always welcome.
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#464665 - 04/27/14 11:03 PM Re: The man I have become [Re: thetraveller]
captainobvious Offline
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Registered: 06/16/10
Posts: 18
Loc: Oregon
Love it! Thanks for sharing!
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