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#463859 - 04/08/14 03:45 PM Rough Week - small trigger
I Want 2 Thrive Offline
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Registered: 04/04/14
Posts: 81
Loc: Florida, U.S.A
Last week was going well:
1. Realized I needed help
2. Joined MS
3. GOT A THERAPIST!
a. Known him for years
b. Trusted him
c. He had many years experience counseling the issue

Week ended on a down,
1. Therapist had massive heart attack and died
2. Flashback Sunday morning (was able to calm down and center)

(I am not living a life, I am living a French comedy)

Today however, I had a victory, in a weird way. The crime I have been dreading, sexual assault on 2 children just hit my dispatch center while I was covering a lunch break. I maintained bearing and composure and got help on the way. Did not freak got the job done.

Good day (for me), restored my bosses confidence in me, and a bit of my own as well.

I am reminded that life is like a cardiac strip, if there are no ups and downs, you are dead.
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#463866 - 04/08/14 04:27 PM Re: Rough Week - small trigger [Re: I Want 2 Thrive]
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Loc: somewhere in Africa
Congratulations on surviving the roller-coaster.
Avoiding being majorly triggered by that dispatch case was a huge step of recovery, IMHO.
I am truly sorry for the loss of your friend and therapist. i hope you can find another good one without too much trouble or delay.
And - welcome to MS! sounds like you have hit the ground running.
lee
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Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago


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#463871 - 04/08/14 06:09 PM Re: Rough Week - small trigger [Re: I Want 2 Thrive]
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Thank you Lee,

I had to hit the ground running, I realized I wasted too much time. I realized I gave "them" too much time.

Time to take it back.


Edited by I Want 2 Thrive (04/08/14 06:24 PM)
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#463874 - 04/08/14 08:29 PM Re: Rough Week - small trigger [Re: I Want 2 Thrive]
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I Want to Thrive

Your name tells it all. You are committed and know you can overcome.

I am sorry you found a wonderful T and he was taken so from you. Someone who can create a safe environment is special and hard to replace. But you rebounded with your actions at work. You should be proud of yourself.

We all want to thrive and you are showing we can thrive.

Keep going and your attitude and desire to thrive we be great assets on your journey to heal.

Kevin

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#463880 - 04/08/14 11:47 PM Re: Rough Week - small trigger [Re: I Want 2 Thrive]
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Loc: Ohio
Glad you were able to ride out the roller coaster of a week. Hope you have some calm in your life, too, to allow healing to happen.

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#463891 - 04/09/14 12:50 PM Re: Rough Week - small trigger [Re: I Want 2 Thrive]
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Posts: 300
So sorry about the rough week and loosing your T. Stay strong. you are on the right track.

rich
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#463937 - 04/10/14 01:24 PM Re: Rough Week - small trigger [Re: I Want 2 Thrive]
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Registered: 04/04/14
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Loc: Florida, U.S.A
Did have another issue pop up. Told my big brother (2 years older) about the abuse for the first time. He took it poorly. He is blaming himself, saying he was a bad protector. I told him that neither of us were at fault, and that the abuse started after he had been sent to reform school. I told him Thomas was solely responsible. Opened up a whole new world of hurt for him. Was not the intent. Damn I feel low. Any suggestions for damage control? frown


Edited by I Want 2 Thrive (04/10/14 02:11 PM)
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#463954 - 04/10/14 11:58 PM Re: Rough Week - small trigger [Re: I Want 2 Thrive]
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Loc: Ohio
Just as we have to go through our own processes during recovery from this, others do as well. Letting others have there feelings about things without trying to fix them (that's how I'm reading "damage control") is the best thing to do, IMO.

Personally, I think sometimes I forget how upset others that care about me can get about my abuse experiences, because I've already processed through them over time. I don't always initially take into account that others may just be finding out about it.

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#464462 - 04/23/14 10:13 AM Re: Rough Week - small trigger [Re: I Want 2 Thrive]
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Registered: 08/08/13
Posts: 94
Loc: Miami, Florida, USA
Look at it another way. If your brother took it poorly, is because he cares. Having a brother who cares has to be a plus in one's life.
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