My Therapist labeled what was happening as torture and I initially disregarded it.
She also pointed out that what they were doing was rape not just bullying as I was labeling it.
I found that I could shut of a lot of the pain and my body was hardening against it. Even the pain from the rapes became less. But no mater what I did I couldn't reduce the emotional abuse. The fear they installed would just eat at me and the hatred that they spewed. I knew I deserved what they were doing and I knew it was all my fault. The logic was simple. If it wasn't my fault then someone would have stepped in for me but no one did. It hurt even more because I was just too stupid to see what I was doing wrong. I know different now but it is still hard to believe that I did nothing wrong and I am always looking.
I once read something which said that torture was the Sanctioned infliction of severe pain (Physical, mental or psychological) for gain (information, confession or pleasure) In My case. Teachers knew enough, my parents knew enough, the youth leaders knew enough. None of them lifted a finger to stop it so I believe that what my abusers did, they did with the acknowledgement and approval of society. AS for the acts themselves.There is no difference between abuse and torture. All of us her have some form of acute injury as a direct result.