this really spoke to me.
i love your description of the difference between falling and jumping.
reminds me of the takeaway i got from a memoir of a parental abuse survivor i read.
there is all the difference in the world between jumping and being pushed.
you've got to take back the power.
best wishes on your jump.
and here's hoping for a gentle landing.
As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago