Yeah, I was the same when I was a kid, I loved superhero cartoons and shows, I escaped the harsh reality of my childhood using TV... I loved superheroes because they were strong, fast, they could defeat everyone easily... The were very different from me, I was weak, I was abused... I have no idea how kids play.
I didn't spend any of my free time playing with other children, this left a huge gap in me, I have no idea how to interact with other people, with girls, how to make friends. I do my best to learn these skills now, but I still feel like an outsider and I feel like I don't belong here.
Have a nice day, DRA