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#461725 - 02/28/14 01:17 PM Relapse Part 1 **TRIGGERS**
TW16 Offline
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Registered: 06/11/09
Posts: 157
Loc: Utah
Up until recently I had gone about 14 months without engaging in any form of sexual contact with another guy. Unfortunately, however, I had a slip up with one friend and a near slip up with my best friend just this week alone.

On Monday a friend who I had not seen in over a year came over to my house to visit. We were going to go ice skating or bowling or do something else, but by the time he got to my house it was too late. We ended up talking for a while and put our arms around each other's shoulder. My friend knew that I wanted to be sexual with him, and he told me that he could not because he had a boyfriend. I understand this; however, I was both disappointed and glad because I wasn't 100 percent sure that I wanted to go through with it anyway.

Later, my friend told me that he too wanted to be sexual with me and specifically told me what he wanted to do with me. He then kissed me and grad and held my crotch and said that he really wanted to have sex. Very hesitantly I told him that if he was really sure he wanted to, then I would do it with him. We then ended up briefly performing oral sex on each other and masturbated him until he climaxed. When it came time for him to masturbate me, told me that he could not because he ride called and told him that he was thee to pick him up. (During this time his ride was on his way to pick up as there were no more buses to take.) My friend tried to kiss me again, but I told him "no". He then left.

In one way I felt used because my friend did mostly what he wanted--which I too wanted--but at the same time I knew that he had to leave and could not finish.

I will have to continue with the second part at a later time. I am at the public library and have limited time on the computers.

TW16

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#462096 - 03/05/14 10:06 PM Re: Relapse Part 1 **TRIGGERS** [Re: TW16]
TW16 Offline
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I was wondering if I could have my posts, Relapse Parts 1 and 2 moved to the sexual identity issues forum?

TW16

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#462108 - 03/06/14 04:30 AM Re: Relapse Part 1 **TRIGGERS** [Re: TW16]
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TW, you probably need to contact a moderator. Don
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#462145 - 03/06/14 07:06 PM Re: Relapse Part 1 **TRIGGERS** [Re: TW16]
TW16 Offline
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Loc: Utah
It has been moved to the Sexual Identity forum.

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