lots going on right now.
many major stressors.
even without the underlying and over-arching issues of CSA, i would be anxious because of all the other changes:
selling our house,
trying to make sense of our finances and plan for the future,
being assessed by our current "employers",
considering resigning and joining a new placement organization,
looking for new job assignments,
facing a major move,
potential legal issues,
medical and dental treatments,
lots of uncertainty and upheaval...
anyway - i come here to unwind and feel safe and find sanctuary and comfort and reassurance that i am ok and that i can make it through this rough spot. how ironic is that - that the thing that makes me feel the best is being in the company of other wounded, suffering, struggling - but tenacious and resilient survivors?!
this is home.
this is where i belong.
i need you guys.
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho