lots going on right now.
many major stressors.
even without the underlying and over-arching issues of CSA, i would be anxious because of all the other changes:
selling our house,
trying to make sense of our finances and plan for the future,
being assessed by our current "employers",
considering resigning and joining a new placement organization,
looking for new job assignments,
facing a major move,
potential legal issues,
medical and dental treatments,
lots of uncertainty and upheaval...
anyway - i come here to unwind and feel safe and find sanctuary and comfort and reassurance that i am ok and that i can make it through this rough spot. how ironic is that - that the thing that makes me feel the best is being in the company of other wounded, suffering, struggling - but tenacious and resilient survivors?!
this is home.
this is where i belong.
i need you guys.
"That you are here - that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. . . What will your verse be?" Robin Williams as John Keating in "Dead Poets Society"