Newest Members
mossTI, E35, 1975, Lucy, StacyR
12337 Registered Users
Today's Birthdays
No Birthdays
Who's Online
2 registered (Vedder32, 1 invisible), 14 Guests and 5 Spiders online.
Key: Admin, Global Mod, Mod
Forum Stats
12337 Members
74 Forums
63420 Topics
443378 Posts

Max Online: 418 @ 07/02/12 07:29 AM
Twitter
Page 5 of 6 < 1 2 3 4 5 6 >
Topic Options
#459463 - 01/26/14 07:01 PM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
Magellan Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 12/31/10
Posts: 1402
Loc: California
You didn't let me down either.

Follow your heart. Try, and try again. Failure is a part of success. Don't beat yourself up, rather, be pleased that you tried, and be even more pleased that you'll try again. You'll do it.

There's a reason why they made us read the book "The Little Engine that Could" as children. It's to teach us to keep trying.
_________________________
It's a heroes journey, and you are the hero.

Loving Kindness Meditation will dramatically improve your spirits; give it a try for just 3 days: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sz7cpV7ERsM

Top
#459618 - 01/28/14 06:44 PM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
concerned_husky Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 08/29/12
Posts: 585
Guys,

Thanks so much for your kind words, all of you. It's...pretty incredible, the amount of support all of you have given me. Through everything, both the ups and the downs. I will really remember that. These past few days have been pretty turbulent as I've been preparing myself mentally for the upcoming stay at theirs. I have a lot of ideas in my head (things I can work on, things I can do when I'm stressed, etc.), but I'm really not sure how things are going to unfold. But like many of you guys have said, I'll be looking back at this as a "trial run", and I'll be thinking up of ways to ensure my escape for next time. If anything, the way they (my parents) have been treating me since has cemented my resolution to leave - and next time, I don't think it will be as difficult, since the little feelings I still had for them seem to be gone now. Sorry it's taken me a while to write back, but I read your posts everyday, they really do lift me up. Thank you guys.
_________________________
Husky

Top
#459636 - 01/28/14 09:58 PM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
JayBro Offline


Registered: 11/13/12
Posts: 246
Loc: Germany
We're thinking of you and behind you 100%
_________________________
,,Nun ging es immerzu, weit, weit bis an der Welt Ende."

Top
#460045 - 02/03/14 09:08 AM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
concerned_husky Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 08/29/12
Posts: 585
It's Day 3 and I'm exhausted already.

I can't get myself to do anything at the moment except smoke and sleep or lie down and vegetate. I thought I could make the best use of this time in prison and try to study languages but it's proving difficult. It's hard to stay motivated to do anything at this point...

Hugs appreciated. frown
_________________________
Husky

Top
#460049 - 02/03/14 09:31 AM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
Lancer Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 07/13/12
Posts: 901
Loc: Florida
PM me any time with any shit you like. You know how that goes.

You also know my experience in "prison" and not being able to do a damn thing about it. To fill everyone else in, I'm referring to being a prisoner of a physically, verbally and emotionally abusive adopted mother because she won custody of me in the divorce when I was 5. A living hell the next 13 years with a break only 2-3 times a year to see Dad and experience what a completely safe, loving, normal home life was like. Back in prison, I cried myself to sleep most nights, right into adolescence.

Her perpetual abuse delivered me ready-made to my high school guidance counselor abuser who carried on with his goddamned power trip for almost a year.

The only survival experience I have from that time was closing the bedroom door and staying there, immersing myself in drawing or photos I'd taken at Dad's, or finding an excuse to go "home" as little as possible (sometimes that meant listening for hours at night to a radio station 500 miles away in Dad's city, my REAL home). And sometimes, as I re-experienced this past week, I didn't fight it. I just gave up and let the depression and despair wash over me. At least my bed felt safe.

You have my permission to veg, Husky. Put more eloquently, fuck it.

Frankly, a stuffed animal - imo doesn't matter how old you are - and a good cry worked/works well sometimes, too.

Top
#460050 - 02/03/14 09:33 AM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
peroperic2009 Offline
Moderator
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 10/09/11
Posts: 3603
Loc: South-East Europe
Hello my friend, I as wondering how are you these days. Sorry to hear about your mood while being "there", must be exhausting frown
Here comes my warmest hug for you!

(((Husky)))
_________________________
My story

Top
#460075 - 02/03/14 06:16 PM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
traveler Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3377
Loc: somewhere in Africa
(((((((Husky)))))))

you still have a future. stay focused on that. do whatever you can to prepare for your final departure. try to keep your interaction with them as minimal as possible. if not possible to be physically distant, maybe you can emotionally distance yourself. hold on - your time will come. i remember how it was when i came home from college after the first year. at that time, i vowed - never again. and i made it happen. you can too.

lee
_________________________
As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago


Top
#460076 - 02/03/14 07:32 PM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
BraveFalcon Offline
Greeter
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 02/25/13
Posts: 1096
Loc: The ATL

((((Husky))))

One day at a time brother. You'll get trough. Sorry things are so tough at the moment. Peace,

Ken

Top
#460079 - 02/03/14 07:47 PM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
BuffaloCO Offline


Registered: 07/14/12
Posts: 420
Loc: USA
((((Husky)))))
_________________________
“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark. The real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.” - Plato

Top
#460122 - 02/04/14 09:12 PM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
JayBro Offline


Registered: 11/13/12
Posts: 246
Loc: Germany
(((HUGS)))
_________________________
,,Nun ging es immerzu, weit, weit bis an der Welt Ende."

Top
Page 5 of 6 < 1 2 3 4 5 6 >


Moderator:  ModTeam, TJ jeff 

I agree that my access and use of the MaleSurvivor discussion forums and chat room is subject to the terms of this Agreement. AND the sole discretion of MaleSurvivor.
I agree that my use of MaleSurvivor resources are AT-WILL, and that my posting privileges may be terminated at any time, and for any reason by MaleSurvivor.