I stay out of chat, so I haven't seen any of what you describe. But no survivor of childhood sexual abuse should ever feel rejected here. Whether the perp was a man or a woman, a few years older or decades older, whether it happened once or a thousand times, whether the memories of it are clear or shrouded, every survivor deserves respect and validation here.
This is the one place where we can tell our stories, be honest, be believed, and not be judged. Anyone who is engaged in such behavior should be reported to the moderators.
You have my support and fellowship. You are welcome here and you are not alone.
"I try to laugh about it
Cover it all up with lies
I try and laugh about it
Hiding the tears in my eyes
'cause boys don't cry, boys don't cry"The Cure