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#458453 - 01/11/14 06:13 AM I'm Leaving My Family
concerned_husky Offline
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MaleSurvivor

Registered: 08/29/12
Posts: 587
It's about to happen.

My flight's in six hours, and I'm going to be making my way to the airport now. My family thinks I'm off to meet some friends. I'm bringing my laptop, some favorite books of mine, and my iPod. I hear them in the background, talking about what to cook for dinner tonight.

The last few days have been really hard on me. There were moments when I wanted to cry, but nothing came out. I got hardly any sleep last night. Every smile I saw - on my mother's face, on my father's and grandmother's - had the effect of making me feel like someone was stabbing me in the heart with a dagger. But I have to do it, for me.

Many of you have given me support during the last few weeks to make this happen. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. I've dreamed of this moment for about five years. It's taken five long years, of many detours, moments of self-doubt and fuck-ups before I finally came to the moment where I set foot out of the house and forge my own path.

I'm pretty sure I'm going to break down at some point over the next few days. I'm sad. I'm scared. I'm worried. But I'm also excited in anticipation of where this new adventure may lead me.

Peace everyone.
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Husky

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#458454 - 01/11/14 07:12 AM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
Jacob S Offline
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MaleSurvivor

Registered: 01/01/13
Posts: 594

good luck.

be safe.

have a hug.

(((((Husky))))
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Like a spent gladiator
crawling in the colosseum dust
who can count on his remaining limbs
all the people he can trust.
Like the one who stands behind him
cheering him on
Estatic when he stands defiant,
wild with abandon when he's gone

just stay alive.
do whatever you need to.
you are worth it.

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#458459 - 01/11/14 11:26 AM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
OCN Offline


Registered: 02/05/13
Posts: 222
Loc: Western Europe
Have a safe journey Husky!
Take the time you need now.. you deserve this!

Take care!

(((Husky)))
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Trust me, you are worth it to love yourself!

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#458461 - 01/11/14 11:34 AM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
newground Offline
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Registered: 10/11/11
Posts: 761
Loc: michigan
((( husky)))
you have all that it takes to be you my friend. there is no failure really, just discovery. your fear must be intense but it is just fear of the unknown, that will pass quickly by definition because it will not be unknown anymore.
good luck bud
Jeff
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Towards thee I roll, thou all-destroying but unconquering whale; to the last I grapple with thee; from hell's heart I stab at thee; for hate's sake I spit my last breath at thee. let me then tow to pieces, while still chasing thee, thou damned whale! Thus, I give up the spear!"
Herman Melville

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#458463 - 01/11/14 12:02 PM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
traveler Offline
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Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3397
Loc: somewhere in Africa
Husky -

Your best years are ahead of you. You know you need to do this to become more healthy and more the man you are meant to be. Don't look back - except to remember the lessons learned. And remember we are "with " you.

Proud of you!

Lee


Edited by traveler (01/11/14 12:02 PM)
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As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago


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#458469 - 01/11/14 04:10 PM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
victor-victim Offline


Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 3342
Loc: O Kanada
congratulations on taking the trip.
take courage.
bon voyage.
have a safe and pleasant journey.
vaya con dios.
send us a postcard smile
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Victor|Victim

War
Love
Poetry

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#458470 - 01/11/14 04:11 PM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
Rich1967 Offline
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MaleSurvivor

Registered: 07/17/13
Posts: 270
Loc: PA
Husky,

Your courage is inspiring and I know will help others to take the steps they need to move forward.

((((Husky))))

I am so proud and excited for you all at the same time. I am pulling for you like so many others here.
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Rich

"Me too" - I don't think I will ever get tired of saying or hearing these two words.

My Story:
http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=441625#Post441625

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#458472 - 01/11/14 04:47 PM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
JayBro Offline


Registered: 11/13/12
Posts: 251
Loc: Germany
Husky, you're in our thoughts and we're routing for you!

HUGS
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,,Nun ging es immerzu, weit, weit bis an der Welt Ende."

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#458473 - 01/11/14 04:49 PM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
Sven Offline


Registered: 07/29/13
Posts: 278
We'll support you all the way
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In the howling wind
Comes a stinging rain
See it driving nails
Into souls on the tree of pain
From the firefly a red orange glow
See the face of fear
Running scared in the valley below
~ Bullet The Blue Sky - U2

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#458475 - 01/11/14 05:39 PM Re: I'm Leaving My Family [Re: concerned_husky]
toddop Offline
Member
MaleSurvivor

Registered: 10/14/11
Posts: 216
Loc: California
Hey Husky,

You are taking a huge step. Not just in the act itself of striking off on your own. But, in doing something so specifically for yourself, for the benefit of yourself, and no one else. That is a tremendous thing to do.

I wish you the best in your new life away from the toxicity of your family. You are in my thoughts. Write anytime you need to talk if the road gets dark. We are all here to support you.

I'm rooting for you as you step into your own life, my friend.
_________________________
Todd

"Great spirits have often encountered violent opposition from weak minds."
-Albert Einstein

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