I will try to look up more 'grounding techniques' tomorrow... Or later today i guess, thanks.
I didn't want to talk to B. I know it's not a good idea, he calls me or this time he waited for me after school.
What exactly happened or what he said I don't know, i simply don't remember. Wich freaks the hell out of me to be honest.
I don't really have a plan other then to move out at some point next year and see if i can shake B. off.. And hoping i can get trough this trial thing against my father unharmed and with as little as involvement from me as possible.
I e-mailed with a dutch helpline about chat counseling but it's hard to find a time that works. Might consider e-mail counseling instead. Who knows. It;s a start, i guess. I can't talk about this shit or even have to be in the same room as them so idk, this is the only option for now.
In the howling wind
Comes a stinging rain
See it driving nails
Into souls on the tree of pain
From the firefly a red orange glow
See the face of fear
Running scared in the valley below
~ Bullet The Blue Sky - U2