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#456743 - 12/13/13 05:56 PM Packed Away
Adam A Gedman Offline


Registered: 08/12/13
Posts: 187
Loc: Canada
I miss those days
Vacant days
When it was packed away nice and tight
Insidious thoughts
Stealing life away
But not when they're all packed away
These lies I tell myself
Better of I'd be
If none of this was evident in me

Packed away
The pain
The fear
Packed away
The shame
The humiliation
Packed away
Care for myself
Care for anything
Packed away
Felt so much better
Than I do today

Packed away
To keep me afloat
Packed away
Because nothing's to gain

If this is healing
Then why the pain
It seems so artificial
Not really me
Not the child who died
I want none of it
I've lost myself
I've lost my life
I've lost what distracted
My tortured soul
Oblivion was where I was
All the memories
Packed away
Packed away
They tell me I'm brave
I chuckle inside
They just don't know
It's packed away
I'm hiding inside
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Presence is the key, for all we have is now.
All we ever have is right now.

Formerly Adam A Gedman (AKA - A damAGed man)

But you can call me Kevin

Toronto Mini WoR - May 2014

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#456751 - 12/13/13 07:51 PM Re: Packed Away [Re: Adam A Gedman]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 412
Loc: Canada
This is packed full of everything I feel too Adam.

My attic is stuffed to the rafters ...
with pain and fear and tortured memories.

I live in my shame and humiliation ... cluttered with the debris of my life ...
dirty dusty ... so packed I can't move.

My basement is dark and dank and moldy ...
strewn with the rotting refuse I don't dare let company see
and from which I myself try to hide.

Everywhere there is everything worth nothing.

GREAT poem my friend ...

((( Adam )))
_________________________
Experience is a brutal teacher.

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#456790 - 12/14/13 08:34 AM Re: Packed Away [Re: Adam A Gedman]
newground Offline
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Registered: 10/11/11
Posts: 749
Loc: michigan
really a good poem man usually it is a good thing to find something you really relate to. then sometimes here you read and its just like WOW. keep on writing brother
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Towards thee I roll, thou all-destroying but unconquering whale; to the last I grapple with thee; from hell's heart I stab at thee; for hate's sake I spit my last breath at thee. let me then tow to pieces, while still chasing thee, thou damned whale! Thus, I give up the spear!"
Herman Melville

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