Hi Goran. Let me say first that if I were in your shoes I would be feeling all you are and probably a whole lot more. But here goes how I think and feel about it. By the way, I'm 64 and single and haven't dated in years.
First, you are really self-conscious about pretty much everything because you are putting yourself out there and are feeling vulnerable. Item: YOU DO NOT HAVE TO DO ANYTHING YOU DO NOT WANT TO DO. IF YOU GO, YOU ARE NOT GOING THERE ON DISPLAY, YOU ARE GOING THERE TO SEE IF THERE IS ANYTHING ABOUT HIM THAT INTERESTS YOU. YOU WILL MAKE YOUR OWN DETERMINATION BASED ON YOUR OWN FEELINGS WHETHER OR NOT AND/OR HOW MUCH OF YOURSELF YOU WANT TO SHARE WITH HIM AT A FIRST MEETING. YOU HAVE NOT ADVERTISED THAT YOU ARE GOING THERE TO HAVE SEX. IT IS POSSIBLE FOR THIS TO BE A TIME OF CURIOSITY FOR YOU BOTH. IF YOU ARE ABLE TO LET THE PRESSURE OFF YOURSELF, THEN HE MAY BE ABLE TO DO THE SAME. I SUSPECT HE MAY BE AS WORRIED AS YOU.
If you are able to take the pressure off yourself, then you may be able to allow yourself to just be curious, flexible, and flow with the moment. If that is not possible, then you may need to give yourself some boundaries in advance, like telling yourself you will limit the time you plan to spend so you aren't so nervous. Don't let external pressures determine your choices and don''t do anything that doesn't feel right for you. For you, a meeting with him is about you. For him, a meeting with you is about him. This is normal and natural. What you both have an opportunity to discover by meeting is whether or not you and him overlap in any way that is meaningful. If you go, Goran, I hope you are able to enjoy yourself at the level you are comfortable with.
Divine Law is not judgment or denial of self truths. Divine Law is honoring harmony that comes from a peaceful mind, an open heart, a true tongue, a light step, a forgiving nature, and a love of all living creatures. Jamie Sams & David Carson, Medicine Cards