Even before I get started I have a sick feeling in my stomach about this one. I was about 11-12 at the time, some man just showed up one day in our lives. I do not remember why he was there or where he came from, he started out as a friend of my parents. He was single, mid 40's, lived with his mother and had the most sissy sounding I had ever heard. I remember he liked to hunt for arrow heads (Indian artifact's) which was my fathers favorite past time. I do not remember if he was military or if he just had a discount card for some army surplus store, he always seem like he was dressed for war. This is another odd memory, one year he bought a night gown for my mother, he wanted to see her wearing it and my father did have a problem with it, in fact pictures were taken, we still have one. I do not think my mother was the one he had his eye on, I have 7 brothers and 3 sisters, I think he was just gaining my parents trust. We went on a lot of short trips with him, to an air force base to see airplanes, out to lunch, and other places I do not recall. One day we were down along the river hunting for arrow heads and things got very strange, he stated this was our art of the river and down around the bend was his, we were to stay here and hunt and he and my brother (or could have been my sister, cannot remember for sure) were going to his space. Talk about warning signals going off in my head (now for some guilt) however I did nothing. I have two other very odd memories, I cannot remember if these happened at the same time or a different day, but definitely at the same location. I remember standing next to him pee'ing and at some point we were discussing condoms, what they were and how to use them, he had some funny riddle about them. I have no memory beyond that point in fact I do not think I ever saw him again after that day.
I have questions which may have no answers:
What the hell were my parents thinking of, if you looked up the word pedophile up in the dictionary you would see his picture.
I have no memory/proof that anything beyond inappropriate conversation, that anything sexual happened.
Do I really want to know what happened, I have been a member of another support group dealing with SSA for about 14yrs. I tried to run some of these issued by them but they had no Idea where I was coming from. I am grateful to be here and sorry any of us need this site.