Welcome to MS Chris,
I like Banjo596 have been on this site for a short period of time. I thought that this could not help me, but in the long run it has helped me. I also went to a Weekend of Recovery Oct 18-20 which I had anxiety feelings that I don't want to go to. What an improvement, I met 25 other men who were also abused and learned ways to let go the pain. On the final day, each man spoke about what they were leaving and what they were taking with them. I left my past and taking to live moment to moment.
"Those who remove mountains begin by carrying away small stones"
"I am in charge of how I fell and I choose HAPPINESS" from The Law of Attraction.