Another b'day in a few days and this will mark a full year of therapy. Three different therapists, one at a time, until I found one that fit with my personality and experiences. I have gone once a week every week, except for my vacation time. The first sexual abuse was when I was four, the last when I was 50. I started the therapy to become a better man, a fuller man. I will never erase what has happened but I can change my future. Have I been successful? Will I be successful? I don't know, but at least I am trying.
On my b'day on Tuesday, I will be in therapy. What better way to tell myself that I am still serious and committed to a better future. I say to the guys of MS, thanks for helping me, for listening to me, for guiding me as I work through to the others side. I could not have made it this far without you guys.
For now we see through a glass, darkly.