This thread is good for me. I have had, maybe still have, absolutely no trust--because I have never been able to trust myself. Period. What I learned since infancy is completely self-destructive. Literally. I learned that any expression of an independent self would most likely get me hurt and could possibly get me killed. I learned to seek out people who were into psychological domination because that was all I knew. I learned to seek out people who were unable to see me or value me because that was also all I knew. I have been conscious of this for a few years now, but changing it is very difficult. It has been shifting incrementally for a long time, but there is still a ways to go before I will be able to trust myself. I frequently do not have a clue what is true for me, and when I go out in the world of people I have fear programs that kick in and completely blur any sense of me and I go on auto please mode.
This is changing for me, and I will most likely make another foray out in the world of people in the next two seeks. Good luck to you and wish me luck also. Don
Divine Law is not judgment or denial of self truths. Divine Law is honoring harmony that comes from a peaceful mind, an open heart, a true tongue, a light step, a forgiving nature, and a love of all living creatures. Jamie Sams & David Carson, Medicine Cards