I so wish there was some magic I could do to make the time stand still for you to have your time of joy mixed with such pain is so not fair. just know that we care for you man, and hope you are able to do what you can do to be well.
Towards thee I roll, thou all-destroying but unconquering whale; to the last I grapple with thee; from hell's heart I stab at thee; for hate's sake I spit my last breath at thee. let me then tow to pieces, while still chasing thee, thou damned whale! Thus, I give up the spear!"