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#451777 - 10/29/13 10:24 PM Re: Marijuana [Re: theatrekid]
Suwanee Offline
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Registered: 10/30/12
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I'll weigh in on this...

Like a lot of other people, I encountered MJ when I was younger. It was around in high school, but generally avoided it because the craze for testing athletes for drugs was starting (as if MJ is a"performance enhancing" in any way for a swimmer-M. Phelps aside).

In college, a friend of a friend was one of those guys who seemed to have all kinds of stuff---sinsemilla, hash, red oil...etc. and a host of delivery systems. He was marginally a student, but ran a lucrative side business. It was here that I sampled some resinous MJ from his private stash. The result was not what I expected after trying some "skunk weed" in high school.

I was relaxed, then tense and pretty paranoid for a time. My mind raced from thing to thing. It really kicked my ADD into ultra-high gear. I was all over the board and impulsive as hell. I didn't give a fuck what happened. I normally never let ANYbody else drive my 4-Runner, but I was in no shape to drive out to the Strip to go bar hopping. I just handed the keys over to a stranger and said, "To the bars, James.' I climbed in the back and trusted him even though he was just as baked.

Subsequent uses were just as unproductive. Honestly, the ADD was magnified so much that it just wasn't a nice experience. Like Ken, I believe that alcohol is more destructive, but the THC in high quality MJ is not to be trifled with either. But..neither is Adderall, Prozac, Paxil, Wellbutrin, Klonopin....and on and on. Ken, if it is ever legalized here...well, I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.

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#455966 - 12/04/13 05:34 AM Re: Marijuana [Re: theatrekid]
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Registered: 11/18/13
Posts: 39
Loc: Kentucky
Bear with me hear, I'm making a point...

I wrote a letter to all of three of Kentucky's senators about my CSA vs. the state of Kentucky raiding my home and every inch of my privacy because I was growing mj on my property. In response to me perpetrating a victimless crime over a substance made illegal with (in the classic definition of the word) propaganda, the state of Kentucky saw fit to send four men in two cars and a fucking helicopter over my house. They then went literally through every drawer, nook and cranny in my house. Then they charged me with a felony and compelled me to plead guilty with falsified evidence of hand-scales that weren't at my house. (This so I was sure to look like a dealer; to which my lawyer, an ex-state prosecutor, said to me, 'If they say they found scales then they found scales and there's nothing we can do about that.' Being an ex-state prosecutor I later deduced that he was on the other side of this at one point and knew that falsified evidence flew just fine in the Kentucky courts.) Then, after having all of my privacy invaded by these four fucking classic single-cell meathead organisms known as cops, I got asked about all of the porn and aberrant sexuality stuff in my house by a neighbor who had read about it in a now-defunct local "newspaper" that was just about crime. So, basically, these four fucking sack of shit meathead cop-bullies took my private life that they knew all about because they got to raid my house over a victimless crime made criminal with propaganda 70 years ago and they told it to some reporter. These "LAW" men, hafuckingha...

Now, compare that to when:

I called the Crimes Against Children Unit of this exact same police force, the Louisville-Metro P.D. I called the CACU a couple years after realizing my abuse and when I worked around to the point that getting justice became predominant in my thoughts. On April 26, 2007, with a whole lot of fucking psychological effort, I called the CACU and got... drum roll please... a fucking answering machine!!!!!!!! I left a message and waited and waited and waited... So, TWO WEEKS LATER, on March 9, 2007, when I had not heard back from them, I called the CACU again. I got a real live person this time! So I say, "Yeah, I called you all on the 26th last month and I haven't heard back and-" That's when the cunt on the phone cuts me off to YELL AT ME, "We get two thousand calls a month!" To say I was stunned would be to abuse that word. I was quite literally floored into utter submission. I found myself meekly agreeing to be forwarded to Lieutenant Jackassorsomething. So I was forwarded and the line rang and rang and rang and then... drum roll please... an answering machine picked up! I left my message and I'm still waiting for that call back.

When I wrote to Kentucky's three senators about the disparate experience of being a perpetrator of a victimless crime vs. being a victim of as heinous of a crime as there is short of murder, the only one who responded was Mitch McConnell with a rambling incoherent issue-dodging fatuity. The other two probably figured they'd have to come up some equally stupid rationalization and issue dodging crap and they just didn't respond. (Kind of like the Crimes Against Children Unit of the Louisville-Metro Police Department.)
So, until someone wants to stand in front of me and have the balls to say, "Hey, child sexual abuse is no big deal to me but smoking pot, well, I think I should get to raid your home, invade your privacy, expose your privacy to the public, take away your voting rights and saddle you with a $130,000 tax bill for that", then I say to anyone who has a problem with me smoking pot that they can go XXXX themselves.

Also, I should say that I nearly drank myself to death in my twenties with Jim Beam but I haven't had a drop of alcohol in over 11 years. Of course, I can drive to half a dozen places within a mile of my home and get as much alcohol as I like and drink as much as I like and "society" doesn't deem this as illegal: i.e. feel like a shameful outlaw who belongs in the shadows if not in handcuffs. (Until pot is legal, I don't even listen to the 'it makes me feel paranoid' comments. Yes, you're breaking the law! Of course, you feel paranoid.)

Finally, I want to say, if you decide I'm a pothead because I smoke pot, know this: I've written three novels, a play, and countless great poems. I'm the second most well-read person I know. I make gorgeous handmade furniture. I make handmade wooden cover books of my own design. I do leather work. I make beautiful canes with inlay and leather work from tree limbs. And I'm a damn good cook. I also eat really well and I am a whole five pounds heavier than when I graduated high school in 1988. (Almost to the letter, all of my life's problem can be linked to my CSA. Outside of the fallout/issues of my abuse, my life is pretty good.)

But, of course, do as you like and don't ever do anything because of what other's say/do. Don't smoke if you don't want to smoke. It doesn't make you cool or any of that BS. Like everything, look inside yourself for the answer to what is right/wrong for you and then trust yourself. Peace.
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#460044 - 02/03/14 06:51 AM Re: Marijuana [Re: theatrekid]
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Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 5524
Loc: O Kanada
have not smoked any mary jane this year (2014) so far.
just finished my 4th tobacco cigarette since new years eve.
i have only had 3 cups of coffee and one ounce of alcohol.
doing well.
could do better.

using exercise, prayer, fellowship and the following scripture to combat cravings
(which are surprisingly few and far between).

As a dog returneth to his vomit,
so a fool returneth to his folly.
Proverbs 26:11

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#479315 - 03/18/15 01:24 AM Re: Marijuana [Re: Charlie24]
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Registered: 09/27/03
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Loc: O Kanada
throughout my stressful life, i have chosen to self medicate whenever necessary. it does not make me high, it only calms me down.
i prefer it to doctor prescribed drugs.
i would never say that mj is harmless.

i can't seem to go for very long periods of time between cigarettes.

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#479542 - 03/22/15 11:11 AM Re: Marijuana [Re: theatrekid]
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Registered: 04/10/14
Posts: 791
Loc: Ohio
I too chose self-medication for several decades. I can honestly say that alcohol did as much damage to my life as did the CSA and the alcohol was my fault. At least now with a decade of sobriety I am seeing things a little more clearly.
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#485559 - 07/15/15 10:43 PM Re: Marijuana [Re: theatrekid]
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Registered: 02/15/15
Posts: 262
Loc: In the Sky
I used pot to experiment and I was kinda pressured into using it by a lot of my friends.... My experience with was great at first.... But after about year or so it stated having really bad effects on me ... the effect that I didn't like and this with my experience it left me with a very self concious state of mind around the time I quit using it ... You know when you have a bad trip and just feel a lot of emotions and such ... For me it's like that conscious state of mind never left me ... And brought back a lot of emotions and issues that were not present at the time ...

My warning to people smoking ... Be sure what ur doing and know your purpose as to why your smoking weed in the first place ... It can bring back a lot of shit from back in the day
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#486199 - 07/30/15 09:14 AM Re: Marijuana [Re: theatrekid]
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Registered: 07/24/15
Posts: 141
Loc: Australia
Awesome to be sober. My principle beverage is a brew of two decaf green tea bags a peppermint tea bag and an organic ginger tea bag with the juice of half a lime

I'm very excited about medical pot. I'll swap it any day for the pills I take now. Very appointment with the head doctor I ask to be moved to the front of the que lol

Vap it now please. Oils not smoke zero lung cancer risk. See if can watch a doc called Culture High.
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#486200 - 07/30/15 09:16 AM Re: Marijuana [Re: theatrekid]
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Registered: 07/24/15
Posts: 141
Loc: Australia
The mix of some heavy pot smoking alcohol the environmental. The trauma a full tilt flash back and would dead if someone hadn't not intervened.
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