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#451539 - 10/28/13 09:30 AM God-forsaken
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one of the passages in the Bible that speaks most powerfully to me and for me:

while nailed to the cross, Jesus cries out, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"
Matthew 27:46

that is how i felt while the abuse was going on - not just during the relatively short (but seemingly endless) periods of time while the step-dad was beating me or manipulating my privates or mocking me, not just while the school and scout bullies were having their go at me, either singly or en mass - but every day when i woke up and discovered that i hadn't died in my sleep, every day when i had to go back to school and face the torment, every day when i had to walk home from school, every day when the step-dad came home from work, every sunday and wednesday when i had to go to church and hear about hell, every night when i was afraid to go to bed, terrified of going to sleep, dreaded not being able to sleep, every time i was lost in night terrors and bad dreams, or worse - awoke to find that they were true - for eight long years, from age 5 1/2 to 13 1/2.

ironically - that is one of the things that gives me the most comfort in the whole of my faith - Jesus knew what THAT felt like - being forsaken by God.

LEE


Edited by traveler (10/28/13 09:39 AM)
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#451613 - 10/28/13 06:33 PM Re: God-forsaken [Re: traveler]
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Perfect illustration LEE...drawn in the ink of a child's pain and tears.
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#451623 - 10/28/13 07:45 PM Re: God-forsaken [Re: traveler]
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in Aramaic... ‘Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani?’ which is translated, ‘My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?’”
(Mark 15:34; Matthew 27:46).

thank you for posting this intense scripture and your feelings.

wow.

it led me on a bible journey which ended at the prophetic psalm of sorrow and suffering.
heavy reading.

was jesus quoting psalm 22?
did psalm 22 foretell his death?

interesting.

PSALM 22

1 My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? Why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring?

2 O my God, I cry in the day time, but thou hearest not; and in the night season, and am not silent.

3 But thou art holy, O thou that inhabitest the praises of Israel.

4 Our fathers trusted in thee: they trusted, and thou didst deliver them.

5 They cried unto thee, and were delivered: they trusted in thee, and were not confounded.

6 But I am a worm, and no man; a reproach of men, and despised of the people.

7 All they that see me laugh me to scorn: they shoot out the lip, they shake the head, saying,

8 He trusted on the Lord that he would deliver him: let him deliver him, seeing he delighted in him.

9 But thou art he that took me out of the womb: thou didst make me hope when I was upon my mother's breasts.

10 I was cast upon thee from the womb: thou art my God from my mother's belly.

11 Be not far from me; for trouble is near; for there is none to help.

12 Many bulls have compassed me: strong bulls of Bashan have beset me round.

13 They gaped upon me with their mouths, as a ravening and a roaring lion.

14 I am poured out like water, and all my bones are out of joint: my heart is like wax; it is melted in the midst of my bowels.

15 My strength is dried up like a potsherd; and my tongue cleaveth to my jaws; and thou hast brought me into the dust of death.

16 For dogs have compassed me: the assembly of the wicked have inclosed me: they pierced my hands and my feet.

17 I may tell all my bones: they look and stare upon me.

18 They part my garments among them, and cast lots upon my vesture.

19 But be not thou far from me, O Lord: O my strength, haste thee to help me.

20 Deliver my soul from the sword; my darling from the power of the dog.

21 Save me from the lion's mouth: for thou hast heard me from the horns of the unicorns.

22 I will declare thy name unto my brethren: in the midst of the congregation will I praise thee.

23 Ye that fear the Lord, praise him; all ye the seed of Jacob, glorify him; and fear him, all ye the seed of Israel.

24 For he hath not despised nor abhorred the affliction of the afflicted; neither hath he hid his face from him; but when he cried unto him, he heard.

25 My praise shall be of thee in the great congregation: I will pay my vows before them that fear him.

26 The meek shall eat and be satisfied: they shall praise the Lord that seek him: your heart shall live for ever.

27 All the ends of the world shall remember and turn unto the Lord: and all the kindreds of the nations shall worship before thee.

28 For the kingdom is the Lord's: and he is the governor among the nations.

29 All they that be fat upon earth shall eat and worship: all they that go down to the dust shall bow before him: and none can keep alive his own soul.

30 A seed shall serve him; it shall be accounted to the Lord for a generation.

31 They shall come, and shall declare his righteousness unto a people that shall be born, that he hath done this.


source: PSALM 22 - KING JAMES VERSION

quite emotional.
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