funny thing - i was panicking the night before going to WoR too - but because i was afraid that someone i knew would be there and that i would be recognized. not nightmares - because i didn't sleep enough to get to that level.
later i realized - if there was someone i knew there - they would be a fellow-survivor - and a potential source of support and understanding rather than shame and embarrassment. not a bad thing at all.
our minds can play funny tricks on us - and we often react in the guise of the injured and irrational children rather than as logical men.
"That you are here - that life exists, and identity; that the powerful play goes on and you may contribute a verse. . . What will your verse be?" Robin Williams as John Keating in "Dead Poets Society"