funny thing - i was panicking the night before going to WoR too - but because i was afraid that someone i knew would be there and that i would be recognized. not nightmares - because i didn't sleep enough to get to that level.
later i realized - if there was someone i knew there - they would be a fellow-survivor - and a potential source of support and understanding rather than shame and embarrassment. not a bad thing at all.
our minds can play funny tricks on us - and we often react in the guise of the injured and irrational children rather than as logical men.
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho