last August i went back to the house and 2 schools where most of the abuse was done to me. i felt i was as prepared as i could be but wondered if i would be able to go through with it. i had been through about 20 months of pretty intense therapy and had brought support along on the trip - my very encouraging wife.
i was visiting my brother who still lives in the area and was leaving his place at the end of our visit - wondering if i should go back to the scenes or not - when i was suddenly seized by a compulsion to see it through. i felt like it was inevitable and i just HAD to do it. (i posted about it in another thread.) it was not easy but i did it - and in the process reclaimed some lost ground. i have felt much stronger since then - and the memories have lost a lot of their power over me.
for others it might be different - i think a lot of my positive outcome was in the preparation and timing.
i hope you will be able to overcome the effects of your experiences - whether you ever go back there or not. it may be enough to get to the point where you know you don't need to go back.
Edited by traveler (10/23/13 07:49 PM)
As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago