the weird thing about it is that i am an actor and a teacher - and normally have no trouble speaking at all. even in front of a crowd.
another thought that occurred to me is that maybe it is a reaction to having kept the secrets for so long. there was a lot of pressure not to tell anyone. and now i am breaking that taboo.
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho