the weird thing about it is that i am an actor and a teacher - and normally have no trouble speaking at all. even in front of a crowd.
another thought that occurred to me is that maybe it is a reaction to having kept the secrets for so long. there was a lot of pressure not to tell anyone. and now i am breaking that taboo.
We are often troubled, but not crushed;
sometimes in doubt, but never in despair;
there are many enemies, but we are never without a friend;
and though badly hurt at times, we are not destroyed.
- Paul, II Cor 4:8-9