Hi All,

I discovered this site a few months ago or so, during a deluge of memories and realizations.
I posted "part 1" of my story, got some good feedback (thankyou to those who pm'd and responded).

I put off writing part 2 because it seemed too hard to write. I went back into the land of denial (I know, it ain't a river in Egypt), but I guess that's been my coping strategy so it was easy to fall back into.

Anyway, recently I came back to the site, posted "part 2" in the Gay Survivors section. I've decided I need to find a therapist, try to work on getting better instead of just staying the same. Not sure how I'll find a therapist and pay for the help, in the meantime I try to check in here regularly just to sort of stop all that self-downing self-talk.

I just wanted to say "hi" and to thank everybody for their support. This site helps me realize I'm not alone, not crazy, and maybe things can get better.

~Eric

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Digging in the dirt
Stay with me I need support
I'm digging in the dirt
To find the places I got hurt
Open up the places I got hurt
--Peter Gabriel