this was a very courageous step - and another milestone in your journey. regardless of whether or not you return to regular attendance/worship in the church, i believe that what you accomplished by voluntarily returning - has made - and will continue to make a huge difference in your peace of mind and well-being. you are living proof that we are not defined or confined by our past. it is possible to go on - getting better as we go...
thanks again for being here and for sharing your journey with us,
"Tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself... And that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is a second's encounter with God and with eternity." - Paulo Coelho