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#450165 - 10/14/13 09:12 PM hide & seek
traveler Offline
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Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3420
Loc: somewhere in Africa
hide & seek

i used to hide so well
that no one else could find me.
i would wait motionless,
silent
hoping
that someone would
seek until they found me.
but no one ever did.

i thought i was so good at it
that i would be the winner.
but no such luck
far from it.

perhaps i hid too well
or they might have thought
i wasnt worth the effort
or maybe they wanted me gone.

so i stayed outside
until it was dark and
everyone else had gone home
and i was still waiting
to be found
in the night
outside
alone.

i knew no other game
but this one i knew very well.
i knew the rules by heart.

you must hide:
from the blows that batter.
from the words that wound.
from the hate that maims.
from the love that is not love.

you must hide:
your wishes to save disappointment.
your face cause it shows how you feel.
your eyes so they wont see the wrongs.
your bruises so no one will know.
your emotions which theyll use against you.
your body so you cant be touched.
your memories to deny all the pain.
your need, your anger, your shame.

so now its nearly impossible
to do anything but hide.
and though i heard
allie-allie-alls-in-free!
ive forgotten how
to come out
of hiding.

now im the one whos seeking:
my memories.
my emotions,
my self

trying to find the lost boy
in the dark
outside
alone.

lee
10-7-13


Edited by traveler (10/14/13 09:17 PM)
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As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
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#450168 - 10/14/13 10:00 PM Re: hide & seek [Re: traveler]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 413
Loc: Canada
You have sought and found the place where you no longer need to hide.
(((lee)))
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Experience is a brutal teacher.

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#453039 - 11/09/13 10:24 AM Re: hide & seek [Re: traveler]
jas4159 Offline


Registered: 06/16/11
Posts: 284
wow, I really like this and can relate. It is funny you call it hide and seek. the cover of my book is a male child covering his eyes at the start of the game hide and seek.

it is so true.

thanks for sharing this is very touching.

rich
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Thanks

rich

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#454000 - 11/16/13 01:24 PM Re: hide & seek [Re: traveler]
Dave PNW Offline


Registered: 04/03/13
Posts: 114
Loc: Pacific Northwest
Thank you Lee for this. I am seeking my lost boy too. The lights are on, fire in the hearth and I am waiting up. Time for him to come in from the cold night. Thanks.

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#454028 - 11/16/13 03:15 PM Re: hide & seek [Re: traveler]
traveler Offline
Member
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Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3420
Loc: somewhere in Africa
Dave -

i am sure that with a welcome like that prepared, he will show up. mine appeared when i wasn't even looking for him - had even doubted his survival. hope you are reunited soon!

LEE
_________________________
As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago


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