Great thread, I also just have not been able to bring myself to put it in writing, not sure why, I guess too much pain. What I do know is that I found a great wife who has stood by be and put up with acting out and still love me. I reached the point that I realize that my perp made me a victim many years ago, I let him make me a victim again and again in my life. NO more. I have decided I will not longer let him use me again. He is dead and I will move on because I can and will finish my life in a better place. I know I have not been able to do this alone Thank God for a great T and wife. They literally saved my life and gave it back to me. God bless all in their journey, there can and is light at the end of the tunnel. I will be a victim no longer.
it is and has been quite a trip thru life, as last I feel that I am in a better place, it takes work and in my case a wife the was and is forgiveing and helpful. At last a relationship has gone right, messed up three.