I somehow understand that the only way this pain may have gotten here is by someone elseís pain not being resolved.
Yeah, I get that. I dealt with severe body image issues until lately, thinking I was ugly, dirty, worthless and interestingly not my current age but decades younger. It was the rejection I felt at the hands of the female abuser and the group who used rivalry for my needs and sensitivity. I tried to become them and failed, thankfully. It was them, not me, who have become the victims of their own actions, self absorbed in destructive coping mechanisms while I have been fortunate enough to find this healing place and my supporters here and locally, forgiveness indeed.
A safe hug for you fellow survivor, from the thousands I have received here, a good feeling when we embrace recovery healing, good for you.