I can totally understand being nervous. Moving is a big change, but can be a big one even if it's just for a month or so. But what if, after this, it's a little easier being around people? What if no one there betrays your trust?
It seems like so often we're behind windows watching other people have the lives that we want, but the world out there is scary and can hurt us, we know for good reason. So it's scary sometimes cracking open that window, or unlocking that door.
There are days I feel like "Why is the right thing to do always the hardest thing to do?!"
I hope that this decision works out well for you.
We are not defined by our faults, or our wounds, but by the truth within us, which nothing can take away.