Your story is painfully familiar, yet unique because it happened to you. I also waited more than 40 years to let my secret out, and am struggling to make a new life now. The process is extremely painful, but its the only way to heal. And you will heal, if you keep doing the things you are doing to pursue that goal.
Can't be bothered with sorrow
And I can't be bothered with hate, no, no
I'm using up the time but feeling fine every day
That's why I'm telling you
I just want to celebrate another day of livin'Rare Earth