....I feel guilt. Shame. Self loathing....I am interested in a way to speak with other men who've been abused. I guess in my own way its cathartic to talk about it now after many years.
Welcome to the club that no one in their right mind wants to join. Many of us are middleaged and just dealing with what was done to us as boys, for the first time. The guilt, shame, and self-loathing you describe are all to common among us.
You are on the right track in starting to talk about it. Someone shared with me early on that "Sex abuse happens in secret, but healing happens out loud"
. I have found that to be true. The more you talk about it the less power it has over you. When you visit MS read, share, and learn all you can. Healing is possible. You CAN
change your life.
Can't be bothered with sorrow
And I can't be bothered with hate, no, no
I'm using up the time but feeling fine every day
That's why I'm telling you
I just want to celebrate another day of livin'Rare Earth