Eventually I may tell my wife part of it. Seems unthinkable to do now.
Is/was/could she be the 'suspecting" type? Has she asked about past issues? Has she 'guessed?'
I only ask because my wife was highly suspicious from early-on. Three or four marriage counsellors outright said "you were abused"...100% Still....you were abused." I would swear up and down Mt Mckinley that there was NFW I was abused.
Its funny though. Back in grad school, before marriage, I did tell her several time of "the sex I had...the ample sex I had" in childhood. Assuming it was peer-to-peer stuff of which I spoke, she did not get concerned.
Like you, OTF, I went on with a highly viable-looking life with chemical assistance. ONLY with chemical assistance...like $100,000 worth.
But anyway; I was wondering if your wife was suspicious at all?