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#448255 - 09/25/13 11:21 PM Empty Eyes
Adam A Gedman Offline


Registered: 08/12/13
Posts: 188
Loc: Canada
There is a young boy clad only in pajamas
He sits on rug in front of a Television
The boy is pale and skinny
He is terribly alone,
Shivering,
Cold,
Alone

Colorful characters flit about the screen
unaware of the frivolity before him
Frozen by ugly mementos
Yet moments lost
A shiver,
A grimace,
A quake

He resides behind empty eyes
There but just not quite
Hidden deep inside
For no one to see
Not even me
Frightened,
Timid,
Sad

His body displays the emotional scars
A shadow of a child is what we see
No sign of the child that was
Or the child that was to be
I see this child,
Tortured,
Broken,
Weak

These things they are not on record
Almost like it never happened
Man from child's shadow
Separated from self
Disconnected,
Fragmented,
Disunited
_________________________
Presence is the key, for all we have is now.
All we ever have is right now.

Formerly Adam A Gedman (AKA - A damAGed man)

But you can call me Kevin

Toronto Mini WoR - May 2014

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#448259 - 09/26/13 12:30 AM Re: Empty Eyes [Re: Adam A Gedman]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 419
Loc: Canada
This is stunningly beautiful.
There is so much I'd like to say ...
but it's hard to speak
when you're crying ...

I see you Adam ... through tear filled eyes.

(((Adam)))
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Experience is a brutal teacher.

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#448284 - 09/26/13 08:09 AM Re: Empty Eyes [Re: Adam A Gedman]
traveler Offline
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Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3511
Loc: somewhere in Africa
me too
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As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago


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#448750 - 09/30/13 03:40 AM Re: Empty Eyes [Re: Adam A Gedman]
Adam A Gedman Offline


Registered: 08/12/13
Posts: 188
Loc: Canada
Thank you shark and traveler,

I am still working on trying to take the blame away from that little boy.
I think I'm getting there, by seeing him so sympathetically.

I wasn't aware until part way through writing it.
The poem took on the visual representation of the sound of a heart beat. Like an EKG.
Reminiscent for me, of what I hear in my head, when I am approaching a significant state of anxiety, or panic.
I don't know what, if anything this means, but I did find it quite curious.
_________________________
Presence is the key, for all we have is now.
All we ever have is right now.

Formerly Adam A Gedman (AKA - A damAGed man)

But you can call me Kevin

Toronto Mini WoR - May 2014

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#448755 - 09/30/13 04:44 AM Re: Empty Eyes [Re: Adam A Gedman]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 419
Loc: Canada
Adam,

What you wrote was very visual ... evocative.
I see that little boy so clearly ...
and clearly so do you.
Imagine if that child were not you,
but a little boy you knew,
and you were watching him from the doorway of the room.
What would you feel?
What would you want to do?
How badly would you want to go to him and hug him close ...
to give the boy the warmth of your body ... and your soul,
and holding him close ... he clinging to you ...
and you would whisper ever so gently in his ear ...
"It wasn't your fault".

I'll have to stop now.
I'v taken my pills and becominh hard to write .. much less make sense
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#448781 - 09/30/13 12:43 PM Re: Empty Eyes [Re: Shyshark]
Adam A Gedman Offline


Registered: 08/12/13
Posts: 188
Loc: Canada
I was faced with something similar last night in fact.
While here in Vegas, we went to see the Cirque de Soleil show - Love, featuring Beatles music.
It reminded me of when I was in school and participated in school productions. I really missed that. It was fun and a being in front of so many people, I felt safe. Who could possibly hurt me with that many people watching.
In the show were 4 young boys, gregarious, charming and about 8 - 10 yrs old.
I was stunned at how small, fragile and innocent they were. They were me.
I enjoyed the show, but couldn't help but feel sad throughout.
I'm getting there.

Gotta run
_________________________
Presence is the key, for all we have is now.
All we ever have is right now.

Formerly Adam A Gedman (AKA - A damAGed man)

But you can call me Kevin

Toronto Mini WoR - May 2014

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#448785 - 09/30/13 12:55 PM Re: Empty Eyes [Re: Adam A Gedman]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 419
Loc: Canada
Hi Adam ...

Sorry I had to cut my last message short.
I was going back to bed when I thought I'd just check my messages
and saw you had posted.
My sleeping pills were kicking in fast ...

I still had the hazy mental image of a cold little boy huddled in front of the TV,
the blue striped pajamas hanging loosely on a frail little waif
too large for a small frame not grown for lack of mercy.
He and all his foes shivering there together ...
shoulders stooped and head hung ...
staring sightlessly at the screen ...
knowing his salvation was not in a cartoon ... he could not outrun the coyote.

You couldn't kill the coyote for him then
and you can't change what that predator did
but you can be there for him now
to soothe and nurture and love him
to convince him

... he did nothing wrong.
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#448786 - 09/30/13 12:57 PM Re: Empty Eyes [Re: Adam A Gedman]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 419
Loc: Canada
... it seems we are both here my friend ...
... but I must go.

smile
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