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#44807 - 07/06/04 01:36 PM I am tired of feeling this way (TRIGGERS!)
crisispoint Offline
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Registered: 09/24/03
Posts: 2154
Loc: Massachusetts
Up, down, up, frigging down again.

I am so frigging tired of this. Feeling good one second, awful the next.

Voices, alters, just too much.

I'm tired. I thought taking time off from it would help, but it's always there. Always Goddamn there.

I want it gone. Or maybe I want ME gone.

I know what heartache is, and it's a physical thing.

sorry.

Scot \:\(

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#44808 - 07/06/04 02:14 PM Re: I am tired of feeling this way (TRIGGERS!)
Curtis St. John Offline
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Registered: 01/20/04
Posts: 1796
Loc: Westchester, N.Y.
I wanted you to see that your own words fit for you too. You are very important to us...


Scot,

You feel what you feel, my friend, but consider this: you've enriched many lives by being here.

You've brought justice to at least one person by being here.

You've brought hope while being on this planet.

You've saved lives while being on the planet.

Would that others have that resume.

It hurts. I know. But you are a good person and a strong person and you WILL get through this.

I'm here if you need me.

Peace and love, my brother.

Scot & Curtis


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#44809 - 07/06/04 02:28 PM Re: I am tired of feeling this way (TRIGGERS!)
outis Offline
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Registered: 02/27/03
Posts: 2259
Loc: Maryland USA
Scot,

Up and down over and over really does suck. I know a little about that myself.

But think of this. The abuse itself is over. Your silence is over. Your belief that you were alone is over. The worst really is behind you now.

One thing about us survivors is we're really very good at enduring. You made it through the worst and you will make it through this.

Still need a break? Why not take Little Scot to see Spidey today? Seen it? Well, there are other flicks and other activities, far from "counselor's " offices. Keep trying to find something good and if you don't find it, you'll make it.

Thanks,

Joe

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"Telemachos, your guest is no discredit to you. I wasted no time in stringing the bow, and I did not miss the mark. My strength is yet unbroken…"—The Odyssey, translated by W.H.D. Rouse

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#44810 - 07/06/04 02:38 PM Re: I am tired of feeling this way (TRIGGERS!)
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Loc: Westchester, N.Y.
And get him ice cream! \:D


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#44811 - 07/06/04 03:11 PM Re: I am tired of feeling this way (TRIGGERS!)
crisispoint Offline
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Registered: 09/24/03
Posts: 2154
Loc: Massachusetts
I did see it, actually. Sunday. And it gives me hope because of one thing - Parker has it worse than I do.

Namely, "Rent!"

Parker "This week, Mr. Ditkovich."

\:D

There are things still worth laughing at. It ain't over yet.

Thank you.

Peace and love,

Scot

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#44812 - 07/07/04 03:37 AM Re: I am tired of feeling this way (TRIGGERS!)
Leosha Offline
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Registered: 06/18/03
Posts: 3614
Loc: Right here
Scot,

So much, I want to get away from myself. But wherever I go, there I am. It sucks. But you, as most here know, that it DOES get better. We will all be better of this. You are a good man, a strong man, who survived more then anyone should have to. But YOU survived, and Little Scot survived. We are honored that you are here with us now. Thank you for your strength. You are a good man.

Leosha

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