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#446786 - 09/10/13 04:06 AM stitches
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 412
Loc: Canada
life isn't fair
I know for certain
it doesn't care
I found an enjoyment
in unexpected employment
doing what I love to do
caring for natures beauty
and it's come to be my duty
that each and every one
has it's moment in the sun
it isn't much to ask
to allow me this small task
and yet it does begrudge
and seems again to judge
that I am just not worthy
of even this small treasure
that I can't be allowed
even this small pleasure
I just don't understand
it gave me these few riches
and now it does demand
I give them back with a hand
that will soon be filled with stitches
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#446812 - 09/10/13 10:37 AM Re: stitches [Re: Shyshark]
traveler Offline
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Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3322
Loc: somewhere in Africa
shy - what happened?
did you get a physical injury?
are you badly hurt?
lee
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As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
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#446840 - 09/10/13 02:51 PM Re: stitches [Re: Shyshark]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 412
Loc: Canada
I've developed a condition called 'Trigger Finger' ...
again ... a little fringe benefit of my diabetes.

When I close my hand and then open it my middle finger
gets stuck in a hooked position ... almost every time now.
My ring finger is doing it now and again and as my doctor was
examining my hand the pinky got stuck.
If I concentrate hard I can make the finger 'snap' up but soon
I will have to pry it open ... and without surgery the time will come when it can't be unhooked at all.
Steroids and therapy can help ... but only for a while.
A small incision is made along the natural crease just below the finger
and then ... snip snip snip ... 4 or 5 stitches ... and it never happens again.
My middle finger does it almost all the time now, the ring finger does it
often, and as my doctor was examining my hand the pinky got stuck.
The other finger and the thumb may never be affected but they'll include
them just in case.
In 2 weeks they'll remove the stitches, the gauze will come off after 1 more week ... then therapy.
So when I say a handful of stitches ...
A long incision from side to side ...... 30+.

Three months ago I was in a greenhouse and they realized I knew as much about
house plants as they did and offered me a job.
I have never missed an opportunity and this one was too good to ignore.

I retired almost 10 years ago.
I moved cities and for the last 5 years I have isolated myself
almost completely.
I don't know a soul here unless it's about my health, my finances, or my car.
This job has lured me out into the world again,
and I haven't been happier in years.
My bipolar has been severe but it has never interfered with my work or in moments of crisis.
I can rise above it when I have to.

Over the last 3 months I increasingly became concerned about this risk,
certain that something would ruin it.
Something always does.
You can't work in a greenhouse caring for and selling common house plants and tropicals with water, dirt, bugs, fertilizers ... germs ... etc
Obviously it's not a good environment when your hand is covered in gauze for 2 weeks, multiple sutures come out and another week before the bandages come off, and an additional week to make sure it has completely closed and has not
become infected.
A month ... and even then it will take time to regain full use.
In the meantime we'll see what is happening with the left hand.

I'm screwed.
They will have to replace me.
I haven't told my boss yet ... not before seeing the surgeon,
and I'm waiting for an appointment asap because my doctor is worried
that the middle finger could soon hook permanently.

Btw ... it's been almost a year since I started coming to MS,
and at the same time I had to have catarac surgery.
It did not go as hoped and I have since had 3 more lasers ...
I go in 2 weeks for what I hope is the last appointment.
My eyes are great now.

I've been practically blind at times ... for a year ...
and now this.

I'm screwed.
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#446874 - 09/10/13 11:34 PM Re: stitches [Re: Shyshark]
traveler Offline
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Registered: 02/07/06
Posts: 3322
Loc: somewhere in Africa
ooooooooh!

that has got to be frightening and frustrating!

what can i say except that i fervently hope you get the good outcome from the surgery that you anticipate.

lee
_________________________
As my life goes on I believe somehow something's changed
Something deep inside...
I've been searchin so long to find an answer
Now I know my life has meaning
Now I see myself as I am, feeling very free...
When my tears have come to an end I will understand
What I left behind: a part of me. Chicago


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#446878 - 09/11/13 12:38 AM Re: stitches [Re: Shyshark]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 412
Loc: Canada
Thank you for your concern my friend.
It's a bit hard to swallow ... but what else can I do?

Also ... I apologize for the doubling up of information
in my explanation. I didn't have the time to proof read it
so I didn't catch my mistake.

Shawn
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#446903 - 09/11/13 12:55 PM Re: stitches [Re: Shyshark]
bluesky Offline
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Registered: 08/04/13
Posts: 114
Sorry to hear that you have to under go surgery and feel you confusion that life throws at us.
My love and prayers go out to you and hope you heal speedily.
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Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."
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#446904 - 09/11/13 12:56 PM Re: stitches [Re: Shyshark]
Shyshark Offline


Registered: 10/30/12
Posts: 412
Loc: Canada
Thank you blue.
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