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#445108 - 08/22/13 01:46 PM rant
nidge Offline

Registered: 08/22/13
Posts: 5
I HATE you, I FUCKING HATE you. I wish cancer on you, I wish you death by 1,000 cuts. Long extended pain which fucks you up and puts you on your knees begging to die. I wish 35 years of pain condensed in a pill shoved down your throat and experienced in one go.
You are a sick, fucked up individual. You are not human.
All you care about is you and your sick perverted needs. Could you ever realise the pain you caused, the lifelong suffering you inflicted? I know it's not just me and my sister, your sick needs must have had other outlets.
Your planning to abuse, the pre-meditated effort to ensure you got your pleasure...just shows what a sick perverted bastard you are. No remorse, just on to the next abuse.
I'm useless, a failure, never amount to anything...that's what you want to hear, that's what will get you off...well FUCK YOU, sometime you will have to pay, here or in another life. My only wish that there was a hell is if you burn in it.

#445109 - 08/22/13 01:49 PM Re: rant [Re: nidge]
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Registered: 05/16/12
Posts: 1159
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Edited by bodyguard8367 (02/27/14 06:54 PM)

#445110 - 08/22/13 01:51 PM Re: rant [Re: nidge]
nidge Offline

Registered: 08/22/13
Posts: 5
Thanks's a start. Have been seeing a counsellor for a while now...and it's helping

#445115 - 08/22/13 02:46 PM Re: rant [Re: nidge]
victor-victim Offline

Registered: 09/27/03
Posts: 5857
Loc: O Kanada

get all that poison out of your system.

those toxic emotions cannot be permitted to take up residence in your soul.

welcome to

keep ranting until you have nothing left to vent.

when you go back and read what you wrote,
you will begin to understand your own thoughts and feelings from a safer distance.


#445129 - 08/22/13 04:11 PM Re: rant [Re: nidge]
Rich1967 Offline

Registered: 07/17/13
Posts: 458
Loc: PA

Welcome to MS.

It's good to get that stuff out of your system. I think abusers are so screwed up in the head that they will/would never understand what they've done to us IMHO. I've certainly had those same feelings.

Glad you are seeing a therapist. I think you will find that and this site great tools as you work through the effects of CSA.

"Me too" - I don't think I will ever get tired of saying or hearing these two words.

My Story:

#445136 - 08/22/13 04:40 PM ! [Re: nidge]
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Registered: 03/25/12
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