Been away from here for about two months while I had some major stuff to deal with.
1) My son's wedding. A wonderful time with my wife, all my children and their significant others. And most of all, with my oldest son, the groom. He said "Dad, its good to have you back". He meant that I am back emotionally and mentally. Its good to be back!
2) Moving. A miserable chore that took twice as long as planned. But we love our new house, even though our teenage daughters hate it, and tell us that every day.
3) Taking a major professional examination. I failed the test. My first thought afterward was "I want a bottle of booze, and someone to fuck, so I don't have to feel this" But instead, I made myself feel it, then went home and hugged my wife and kids. The failure didn't kill me, and I didn't have to drink or act out to cope with it.
Its all just a few more bumps in this road of recovery. More later. Good to see you all, and so many new ones too.
"But now old friends are acting strange,
they shake their heads, they say I've changed.
Something's lost but something's gained in living every day
....it's life's illusions I recall, I really don't know life at all. "Joni Mitchell