I caught that episode of Major Crimes too......
Yeah...kinda rung the bells for me as well...was proud to see them write something so important ya know?!?! Even if it was triggering as hell.
I am at a pretty advanced place with my CSA recovery sometimes...but you know what I have learned???
It just takes the work man. I do the work ...and then I reap some benefit. Every time I learn to ease up on my judgment of myself, each time I learn to relax on my "iron clad no shifting" point of view...I get some dividend back in the form of feeling like I am gonna be ok.
I have learned that its ok to be gay, its ok to be me, its ok that I was molested, nothing I could do to stop it, that I am grateful to my kid self who took a fucked up situation and bought the kobiashi maru home...he bought US a future.
I take care of that little fella today....and I don't let anyone tell him he is bad just because he knows what dick tastes like. I am careful to remember that each time I deny that little guy the opportunity to feel bad is a day I get to spend feeling good about being Geoff. I remember each day to say a couple of affirmations....like looking into a mirror and saying, "You are a sexy beast" or "I like the way you make me feel".
Shit like that.
One day I will have this shit nailed.....probably two days before I check out. LOL