You stepped out of your comfort zone and found more about yourself by doing so. That's healing brother. And while I may be wrong, I think the "goofy face" was the little boy inside you coming out to play.
It's okay to find the faith to saunter forward
With no fear of shadows spreading where you stand
And you'll breathe easier just knowing
that the worst is all behind you
And the waves that tossed the raft all night
have set you on dry land
- The Mountain Goats - "Never Quite Free"