Welcome to the site. You can find friends and support here. I joined just over a year ago and since then got into T (therapy) and it's helped a lot. You will find we all have different stories but we share hurts and confusion, and through that we can relate to each other. So, welcome Brother and congratulations for taking another big step.
“We can easily forgive a child who is afraid of the dark. The real tragedy of life is when men are afraid of the light.” - Plato