There is nothing wrong with you.
But you got some abuse as a young guy, as I did. That abuse often teaches us or compels us toward some bad habits on a deep or emotional level. Another way to say this is that parts of the brain remember the abuse and act it out even if our conscious mind has gotten over it. Our brain is divided into compartments and abuse can make us more compartmentalized. Parts of our brain can demand sensations and this drives certain types of behavior. I have had dissociative disorder which can make this problem more acute. That's one way to look at dissociative disorder. The different parts of the brain have become deeply separated to the point that they think and act very separately.
Some of the solutions to these problems:
1. EMDR therapy can be a powerful tool to restore integrated thinking and emotions.
2. Certain exercises. For me, seeing a 3-D movie tends to integrate brain parts.
3. Some computer games. Games which cause our hand and our emotion and our thinking (rational) brain to work together will bring about healing.
4. Light (or deep) hypnosis. This can, if expertly done, bring together the separated brain areas. Then they can begin to work together.
5. Talk therapy. Just talking out the abuse and the effects it had on you will bring together the brain areas.
6. Writing out (such as in MS) in detail what happened to you and the emotional effects it had will bring your brain together. I have a post where I have pictures of myself for each abusive event. It is possible to see on my facial expression how the abuse affected me afterward. That kind of an activity brings the understanding and the emotions together. Therefore it is healing. It also helps others to understand the effects the abuse had on us.http://www.malesurvivor.org/board/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=440811&page=54