Welcome back, Matt!
i am sorry to hear of your loss of your wife.
and also of your father's failure to believe and protect you.
glad you have your son and hope and pray that the two of you can be a wonderful support to one another.
it is so good that you have continued with your journey of healing on your own - but also great to have you back with us.
if there is anything we can do to help, just ask.
i think most of us have had major trust issues to deal with - so you are not alone there.
There’s a special providence in the fall of a sparrow. If it be now, ’tis not to come. If it be not to come, it will be now. If it be not now, yet it will come—the readiness is all. - Hamlet, Act 5, sc 2