Welcome back, Matt!
i am sorry to hear of your loss of your wife.
and also of your father's failure to believe and protect you.
glad you have your son and hope and pray that the two of you can be a wonderful support to one another.
it is so good that you have continued with your journey of healing on your own - but also great to have you back with us.
if there is anything we can do to help, just ask.
i think most of us have had major trust issues to deal with - so you are not alone there.
We are often troubled, but not crushed;
sometimes in doubt, but never in despair;
there are many enemies, but we are never without a friend;
and though badly hurt at times, we are not destroyed.
- Paul, II Cor 4:8-9