I could relate to a lot of things you wrote here. I'm sorry you've gone through so much pain - the drugs, the prostitution, suicidal thoughts, the false self, feeling 'broken'...
You said you needed help, but you didn't know what that would look like. You've made a great start in reaching out. I'm also glad you've realized that what had happened to you was very wrong. It shouldn't have happened - you didn't deserve it, and it wasn't your responsibility. I think MS and the community here will give you a lot of support. Once you have a strong footing, you can start to look at your more individual problems (we all have them), and begin to envision and define what your own form of recovery will look like. Everyone has a different path, and you will get to choose it.
You are breaking down the wall (your false self) slowly. To be frank, as you do this, there will most likely be those who do hurt you, as you fear. But you've shown strength and courage in reaching out here - I'm confident they will pull you through during these times as well. I think breaking down the walls is simply a stepping stone to building strong, healthy and meaningful friendships/relationships. The pain will make the road very bumpy, and sometimes you'll feel anxious about the future, but once you have those friends and support, it would've been worth it.
Things will get better.
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