For most of my life I believed I was beyond Him, but he did not give up on me. So now I talk to Him every day and try to read scripture daily too. Everything I tried to do in the natural world to free myself did not work. Now, because I've reconnected with Christ, I am getting through this. I found out that my freedom in Christ is instant, but my growth in Him will be a life long process. I'm not perfect now, not by any means, but I am free from the old lies from the perps that I used to let define me. Lately, I've been frustrated and angry, but I'm getting through this and learning each day. Well, I'm trying anyway. It is those "moments" you mentioned that keep building me up and I'll learn how to respond better to those who I think attack me, as Jesus would respond. Takes time, but know you are not alone. Glad you found your way back here.