I am new to this kind of forum. I joined because I need help dealing with the constant anger that I have towards myself and others, which I strongly feel is a result of being abused. I thought I had dealt with and processed my abuse fully, which happened at the age of 4-5 by an older boy down the street. The effects are appalling, as I need not mention here I am sure. For one, I have screwed up all my relationships with women by cheating on them or just driving them away and repeated the same patterns over and over. But recently it is worse than I thought. In the last few weeks I quit my job in an argument with my boss and bloodied my fists on a solid wooden cabinet in an argument with my roommate.
I don't know how to let go of it...and really need help before I do something that lands me in prison or worse. I have done 1-1 therapy and now looking for groups to participate in...anything...any thoughts or advice for this broken man?