I, for the most part, am not interested in sex either. Sex, for it's own sake, has little appeal to me, other than if it's with a prostitute, and then it's fun, but can be very expensive, so I stay away from it, because it's turned into an expensive addiction.
I would imagine that if I had the "right" partner, things would be different, but as it stands right now, I've seen that society has convinced me that sex is something to be desired as a thing in and of itself, totally detached from the human relationship that, to me, would make sex enjoyable. When I think about how society indoctrinates us with constant propaganda since as far back as being a teenager, that sex is something of the utmost importance, value, pleasure, and status, as to be almost a matter of life and death (which, socially speaking, it is), it no wonder I was convinced of something that wasn't the case for me. It's like alcohol, there's no reason why someone who's never had it would ever want it were it not for the peer pressure and constant messages that it has some value to us. This, however, is not the truth of the matter for me. Other than with prostitutes, sex is not something that is not that desirable to me. I can take it or leave it if given a choice.
I see recovery as a lifelong journey rather than a final destination, a journey, though, which can have many successes along the way.
WoR Alumnus - Hope Springs, OH, October 2009
My avatar is the farmhouse at the Hope Spring, OH WoR. It's a nice place.