I will probably go and do EMDR since my T painted me into a corner. I am very nervous but as he said I was nervous to go to a shrink for meds, at one time I was nervous to tell my story and I was very nervous to sign up to go to a WoR in July, all of which I have now done. I wish I could be more at ease with doing EMDR but my whole story has been a battle with myself.
I've heard so many different stories but my T thinks it will help me tremendously and I do trust him in telling me the truth. But I'm definitely scared of being brought through my past, there are places in my past where I tried hard to die and was scared others would just dump me in the river. I'm afraid of going back there but it is scarier going forward without a map.
In a way I really don't want to end up like Bryan (LAD) which still sits on my head like an elephant. It's the funk of no return, one moment we're talking to him and the next we're mourning him.
The bottom line is that we have to try EMDR, it might not help but I'm hoping that I will be in a better place than where I'm at right now.
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It will get better....