I've had a lot of luck processing my memories and emotions with EMDR and yoga, specifically Bikram. Bikram hot, hard, and one hell of a work out; I say that as a 4 year college varsity athlete. But both EMDR and Bikram have helped me processes my emotions and memories in a powerful and constructive way. Have you ever looked into either?
Strength in power is a false victory rooted in vapid grandiosity. Strength in character and integrity is the freedom to act righteously irrespective of the surrounding pressure. True power is the presence of mind to live with character and integrity.